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Giladeh ini blog gakerawat. Maap yak. Sibuk sekolah wkwkwk gayalu. Banyak pikiran juga lately.

Jadi skrg lagi libur UN. Di rumah gabut gangapa2in. Cuma makan tidur dan menggembrot saja. Tadi iseng ngesearch nama gue sendiri....dan keluar berbagai macam old tweets, old blog posts dan some embarassing stuff yang gue sendiri bingung knp gue dulu kecil kaya gt-_-

Most of them adalah memories in junior high. Though sedikit geli bacanya, but if I could I would go back to be there even if it's only for 1 day. Serius. Kangen. It's the time when di sekolahan ada yang bisa gue percaya sepenuhnya. Ada Nadya, Dhifa, Dina, Dhilah, Kelv, Bebe, Linda, Yonah dsb. Well, I do miss you all. Gabohong. Dan tentu saja, sahabatku yang nun jauh disana -walaupun ga sesmp, Lela hehehehehe 11 taun ya Lel we manage to keep this friendship going tho lo ada di Sukabumi:')

School has been tough. Dan memang daridulu begitu sepertinya. I recently had my first, ehem......heartbreak.Yes people, heartbreak. The worst one I think setelah apa yang terjadi di penghujung 2011. Some of my closest friends in high school  know about it. I don't usually trust new people but the universe made me do that. Everytime I see that 'guy' with another girl, they say 'don't be sad, my friend' HAHAHAH seriously I won't cry over boys. I won't.

Other stuff that constantly makes me go nuts is that snmptn undangan thing. Rivalry here is just crazy. Some people seem nice, but they stab you in the back. Some people act so helpful, but they drown you instead.  Some people think about nothing but themselves. So, I guess it's hard to rely on others for this stuff. Isn't respecting other people is a part of a rivalry, fellas?


As you may know, gue mau masuk FKUNAIR. No one can replace that one particular thing. my plan B is FKGUNAIR. okay I know it's risky to put both medical faculties on the plan but I don't want anything else. I just wanna go back.  Hopefully there will only be approximately 13 months for me to live here. I'll have my new life after that. So, now I'm living my life now in Jakarta to the fullest. Trying to cherish everything. A silly heartbreak won't stand a chance making me sad. I'm surely gonna miss you all. Couldn't ask for any better bestfriends and sister. It's not a goodbye yet. No, it will never be a goodbye. Rasanya skrg mau peluk kalian satu satu. Dulu mah gampang ya tiap hari ketemu, ketawa bareng, peluk mah peluk aja. Sekarang mana bisa sih..... Gue sibuk. Kalian juga. Sampe gabisa jalan or at least ketemu bentar:(


Ohya, I notice that I've been turning down some invitations to go out and play these past months. Idk man. I am still traumatic about last year. But there were times when I was just lazy and again, overwhelmed by school stuff. So sorry. In case you're wondering what happened last year, well if you really are my friend, you won't need to ask me what was that.

Gatau mau bilang apa lagi. Those were just random thoughts that rush into my mind. See you around, fellas!